Time for an emptying of the mind from the last few days worth of ponderings and thoughts:
- As I went through the drive-thru at McDonald’s the other morning before work I saw out of the corner of my eye a brilliant sunrise, deep pinks, red and purple tinged clouds spread wide. I thought to myself, “that will be so pretty to drive toward” as I paused a moment to fix up my burritos and get situated before heading down the road. I pulled out of the parking lot and looked up to see only gray clouds and blandly-colored sunlight. What?! Where did it go? It was so beautiful but so fleeting. I would have missed it completely had I not noticed it just at the right moment. I was sad I didn’t get to see it fully in the wide open. I think oftentimes God is at work and I don’t notice, maybe because it is a fleeting seemingly small thing, or something I’d have to be purposefully watching for to enjoy. In Isaiah God said, “I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it?” (Isaiah 43:19 NLT) I want to see the beautiful things, big or small, that God is doing all around me. I have to be watching.
- At a time when I probably should be concerned or trying to figure out what will happen next, I have complete peace. This is only because of God! I’m enjoying it. I think the desperate feelings I’ve had the last month or so have given way to it, because I’ve been pressing hard into my Father. I’ve been as needy for him as I would be for air if I were held under water. Corrie Ten Boom is one of my favorite writers and she is credited with this great quote, “When a train goes through a tunnel and it gets dark, you don’t throw away the ticket and jump off. You sit still and trust the engineer.” Choosing to trust lately has been one of the hardest things I’ve done but it has brought me to a place of peace, a place of really trusting the engineer even in complete darkness or thick fog.
- Sometimes you just have to “zoom out” a little when you’re in a pinch or tough time. Rather than focusing on something painful or seemingly impossible, I let my perspective zoom out a little to see that I still have my health, my family, my friends, my job, our cars, our clothes, and more. If I zoom out far enough to include people in other countries it really gives me clarity – seeing those who are suffering from persecution or natural disasters puts my troubles in a new, much dimmer light. If and when my health, family, friends or possessions are taken away, I will zoom out more, “if I lose everything, I still have God. I still have the promise of eternal life. I still have His presence with me always.”
- There’s just about nothing as peaceful to me as driving through the Indiana countryside, especially in the late afternoon/early evening when the shadows are long and the bright sun is spreading its golden rays across broad fields to barns, houses and up against groups of trees. Today it was made even more beautiful by the trees that have begun trading their yellow-green cloaks in for bright yellow-orange and red. The openness speaks to me of breathing room, freedom, unconfined space. It is comforting to me and my heart gives a contented sigh.
- Tomorrow is a big day for our church family and for our family. I’m trusting God to have His way, to influence hearts, to protect each one and our church family as a whole, to move through the room as we worship, bringing His amazing love and peace to the surface of each soul there. I pray that His sweet, holy presence will so fill the room tomorrow that we are swept away, caught up, overwhelmed by beauty, fully surrendered. No matter what happens, I will praise Him. No matter what happens, He is God and He is good.