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I don’t have a lot to say today but I did really enjoy worship this morning.  We sang a new song with the lyrics, “We have all we need in You, and all we need is You…”  (Charlie Hall) and another that sang of Jesus in this way

“Beautiful Jesus
Beautiful Savior
Nothing is greater, brilliant Creator
Friend of mine
Perfect in power
Matchless in glory
Nothing is greater, brilliant Creator
Friend of mine.”    (by Kristian Stanfill)

It was so good to focus on Jesus and be reminded that He really is all we need.  I loved singing next to my daughters and harmonizing with them while we all sang…wonderful.  Kimmi and her boyfriend surprised us and came too!  Then we all went to lunch.  We had lots of laughs along with our tacos and nachos.

Something that stood out to me from this morning’s message at church was an illustration the speaker gave about his 7th grade year and flag football.  He was not such an athletic type: a little chubby and always chosen last for teams in PE.  During flag football they would make him a blocker so that he just stood there while the rest of the boys ran out the plays.  He decided to start at least running over to the side and up toward the goal line, just for something to do.  It came down to the last play in which they could possibly win the game.  He enthusiastically suggested to the quarterback in the team huddle that he could run to the goal line, since he was always wide open down there, and receive a pass.  The quarterback agreed and told him which pattern to run.  He excitedly ran the pattern, stood wide open in the end zone, not really sure the quarterback would really throw it to him when all of the sudden he saw the quarterback looking at him!  He nervously opened his arms and thought, “In this moment I can either be a hero or zero,” but actually caught the ball and they won!

God will use us when we feel so inadequate or that we’re an unlikely choice.  For some reason that illustration really struck a chord inside of me.   In the last 6-8 months or so, through various events, conversations and experiences, I’ve been second-guessing the ability John and I have to really lead a church or be fruitful as pastors.   I’ve compared us to other more cool or outgoing pastors, to other churches that seem to be busting at the seams with new converts, to entrepeneur types who have energizer bunny-type gusto and the creativity to match.  Even though I know I shouldn’t compare myself or my husband to anyone else, it happens.  When I heard the story this morning of the awkward football hero my heart swelled.  AND, if it’s true what I’ve been posting about how God made me and made John just the way we are on purpose, then that means he can use us the way we are to draw people to Him and help His cause.  I want to be better and more like Him, but I don’t have to change personalities, John doesn’t have to change personalities.  Just the way we are, we will look up from time to time and see God looking at us getting ready to make a pass.   He also enables us to catch it and score.  He wants us on his team.  He wants you.  He wants anyone who’s willing to be a part of what He’s doing, no matter how introverted, extroverted, serious, funny, cool or uncool we might be.

I have nothing against cool, awesomely outgoing servants of God, that’s for sure!  Just wanted to clarify that.   It’s just good to be reminded that God will throw to me, too.

(By the way, I’m not writing this to get reassurances from my sweet friends – just being honest and getting stuff out in the open)