You may have noticed, if you’ve read my posts in the last few weeks, that my relationship with and parenting of one of my teenage daughters pretty much consumes my thought-life lately.
You know, parenting is really hard! I hear all parents everywhere shout “amen!” I have always loved being a mom and there have been other difficult times along the way, this is just a different type of difficulty. It’s new territory for me and for John but thankfully not for God.
After a particularly challenging day and evening yesterday, I drove to work this morning I talking with God, “I don’t want to think about her all day today. I don’t want to be consumed by the situation anymore, obsessed with trying to think of solutions or plans or anything else. I want to think about You, God, about the good things You’re doing, about other people, about almost anything but parenting my daughter. Help me think of something else.”
When I sat down at my computer at work this morning a verse from Psalm 73 came to mind:
Whom have I in heaven but you? I desire you more than anything on earth. My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak, but GOD remains the strength of my heart; He is mine forever.
What better thought to dwell on than that? I’m so thankful for the strength God gives me, for His presence in my life, for His forgiveness and compassion, for His power and ability to do anything, for His wisdom and knowledge, for His love. He will never leave me. I will never NOT be His child. I will always be in His care. There’s nothing to fear.
So, I decided those are the things I will dwell on and think about today: my loving, amazing, beautiful heavenly Father and the fact that I get to live in relationship with Him every day, including this day.