There have been many times in this past year when I couldn’t really hear it…times when I almost scoffed at the thought of him singing at all. Every now and then I thought I heard it, like a brief break in dark, gray clouds that reveals a small patch of blue sky and sunshine that is soon covered by the heavy grayness again.
Sometimes the noise of the wind gusting around me was so loud the melody was faint and far away as I strained to hear it, needing some reassurance or direction. Sometimes I found myself feeling isolated in a wide and desolate place where the silence is deafening and terrifying. I asked Him in those difficult moments, “Do you really still delight in me? Have you forgotten where I am?”
I have to admit there have been times I was angry with Him so I sat down and put my fingers in my ears. I’m not proud of that, but it’s true. I was having a hard time believing his song.
He’s proven to me over and over that He never stops singing the song of his unconditional, faithful, and real love. Nothing lifts my heart and lightens the weight of burdens on my back like the sound of the breathtaking, soaring melody of God’s song as He sings it over me. When I do hear it, I’m reminded of my place in his family and his heart. I’m reminded of the undeserved grace He’s given me. I’m reminded of all that I should be thankful for.
In Zephaniah 3:17 it says,
For the Lord your God is living among you.
He is a mighty savior.
He will take delight in you with gladness.
With his love, he will calm all your fears.
He will rejoice over you with joyful songs.
In these last few weeks I’ve heard Him clearly – loud, triumphant, a fierce love in His voice that is unmistakable. It bowls me over and then lifts me up. He really is delighted to lavishly love us and take care of us, to save us. He really does sing over our lives without ceasing, sometimes faintly and tenderly, sometimes strong.
I hear Him singing…